Before I dive into the final stage, I want to take a moment to reflect.
This journey—this epic, emotional, exhausting, and exhilarating journey—has been years in the making. Riding the Tour de France stages with Le Loop has become a defining part of my life. It’s not just about the kilometers or the climbs. It’s about resilience, community, and pushing beyond what I ever thought possible.
This was my fourth time riding with Le Loop, and each year has its own story:
- In 2019, I completed all 21 stages (with a few wild detours—explained in my blog from 2019).
- In 2022, I signed up for the full tour again, only to be sent home after Stage 9 with COVID.
- In 2023, I returned for a partial ride—my daughter was getting married, and that came first.
- And this year, in 2025, I came back to finish what I started in 2022.
It hasn’t been easy. There’s been illness, vertigo, exhaustion. But I kept showing up. I gave it everything I had—and I have no regrets.
This ride has also always been about something bigger. I’ve been raising funds for charity through Le Loop, and I’m still a few hundred pounds short of my commitment. If you’ve been following along and feel moved to support, here’s the link to my sponsorship page. Every bit helps.
Now, let me tell you about Stage 21—the final ride into Paris.
I woke up with a familiar heaviness pressing down on me—the kind that whispers, don’t move. The kind that makes you question if this will be the day you don’t make it.
If I sat up and the world spun again, I’d know the vertigo was still with me—and that I’d miss the final stage of the Tour de France. The grand finale. The ride into Paris. Around the Arc de Triomphe. I couldn’t bear the thought.
So I lay still and bargained with my body. Please, not today.
Eventually, I whispered to myself: Move.
I sat up. No spinning. Just stillness. I turned my head side to side—still nothing. Relief washed over me.
I could ride.
And it felt like a gift.
After sitting out the last two stages because of vertigo, I was finally back. That was the hand I’d been dealt, and I played it the best I could. Today, I would ride—and I couldn’t have been more grateful.
We had a two-hour transfer to the start in Mantes-la-Ville. The forecast promised rain—and it delivered. I layered up in rain gear. It was cold, wet, and raw, but I didn’t care. We rode through it for nearly two hours before the skies began to clear.
My legs felt fresh—thanks to the forced rest—and I was all smiles, pushing harder than I had all tour. I didn’t wear my heart rate monitor. I didn’t care about numbers. Today wasn’t about metrics or pacing. It was about presence. And I felt like flying.
I rode with the fast groups—the ones I usually only see at the start line. The ones already showered and halfway through their second beer by the time I roll in. But today, I was with them. I was keeping up with ease.
The route was 111 km, winding through the outskirts of Paris. We passed quiet farming villages, sleepy towns, and busy roundabouts before reaching Versailles, where tourists were already spilling onto the steps. I snapped a quick photo—no time to linger. I was headed toward the Côte de la Butte Montmartre: a 1.1 km cobbled climb at 5.9%.
The pros weren’t thrilled this was added to the Tour this year—it’s there thanks to last year’s Olympic route. They’ll have to do it three times, but the road will be closed for them. One loop was enough for us.
It was chaos. The streets were packed with pedestrians. The cobblestone climb was steep, uneven, and long. We must’ve looked ridiculous—a dozen riders in matching Le Loop jerseys threading through a sea of tourists. Like blue salmon swimming upstream.
I climbed faster than I would have alone, pulled along by the group. At the top, a woman shouted, “Bravo, Madame!” as I crested the hill, gasping for air. I laughed. For a moment, we felt like the pros, with fans cheering us on.
That feeling evaporated the moment we hit Rue Lamarck.
It’s a charming, winding street with views of the Sacré-Cœur—but today it was jammed with people. Too dangerous to stay fully clipped in. We all unclipped one foot and half-pushed, half-rode through the crowd. Tourists swarmed around us, muttering in French. I didn’t need a translation. We were a nuisance on wheels.
If I’d been alone, I would’ve walked. But I didn’t want to lose my group. We moved as a unit, taking over the lane, holding back cars trying to squeeze past. We weaved through traffic, ran red lights (not my idea), and ignored bike lanes when they didn’t suit us.
I hated it.
And I loved it.
It was terrifying and electric.
I pulled off moves I didn’t know I had in me—balancing at intersections, unclipping one foot while staying in motion, ready to spring. When the pack moved, I clipped in and chased—darting through traffic, sharp turns between cars, sprinting, braking, dodging.
We even shot through a tunnel—I’m still not sure it was legal. But we rode like we owned the city.
I’ve been riding for over 15 years, and I’ve never ridden like that. But now I know I can. Today, I leveled up. My pink Pinarello was an extension of me. I thought, and it responded. No hesitation. She was me. I was her. Fluid. Fearless.
I got dropped three times.
Once by traffic.
Once by hesitation.
Once by sheer bad timing.
But I kept fighting back.
The last time I lost the group, I was near the top of the Champs-Élysées—the legendary 2.5 km stretch that leads to the Arc de Triomphe.
I slowed, picking my way through traffic. Vulnerable, alone.
Then I turned the corner. And there it was—the Arc, distant but unmistakable. The French flag billowed at its center. Emotions surged.
I paused. I didn’t want this to end.
A year of training. Three weeks of riding. Every high and low.
I had just 2 km left. But I needed a moment to breathe.
To feel it all.
Was I happy? Sad? Mad? Proud?
Maybe all of it.
I was just glad to be alone for this part.
I took my time, rolling gently in the bike lane, focusing on the Arc as it drew closer. No cars. No chaos. Just me and the monument, welcoming me home. The 70-foot flag waved above the tomb of the unknown soldier—twisting, curling. Magnificent.
This Tour wasn’t perfect. I completed more stages than I missed. But a brutal chest cold, followed by vertigo, nearly derailed me. It was hard—physically, emotionally, mentally. I gave it everything I had.
I reached the infamous roundabout circling the Arc. It’s wild—cars darting with no rules. I paused, looking for a break. A bus honked behind me. I jumped aside. It pulled through the chaos, blocking traffic.
A perfect path opened.
I slipped in behind it—my own private victory lap.
And then—I heard it.
Applause.
To my right: Le Loop riders, staff, families. And Drew.
They were cheering. Yelling my name.
Tears filled my eyes. I’ve circled the Arc before—back in 2019—but this was different.
As the cheers faded, I whispered to myself, “Well done, girl. Well done.”
Not just for today, but for all 54 stages since 2019.
I think I needed to hear that. In case I started judging myself for not doing it all. I’m proud of what I’ve done—every year, every loop, every struggle.
Fifty-four stages.
It’s been an incredible journey.
The Tour de France is designed to break 20-year-old elite male athletes. Le Loop isn’t a race, but the route is the same as the pros—sometimes harder. We ride extra miles to and from hotels. No recovery buses. No massage teams—just ten-minute slots if you’re lucky. Meals are nutritious, but there’s no guidance on how to fuel. We figured that out ourselves.
I averaged 5–6 hours of sleep. Spent 9 hours a day on the bike. Battled back, shoulder, and hand pain. Saddle sores. Blisters. A chest cold. Vertigo. Extreme fatigue. Freezing rain. Scorching day. Wind. Swollen lips. Heat rash. Bug bites. Muscles aching. By day’s end, it felt like I was sitting on broken glass.
I was depleted.
I was exhausted.
Every day after I got sick, I swore I’d never do this again.
Someone asked me on Stage 12, “Have you scratched the itch,
Carmen?”
I said yes. I meant it.
I’ll miss the bonds—with people I barely knew.
I’ll miss the laughter, even in pain.
I’ll miss the finish line relief after a brutal day.
We chose this.
We could’ve quit. Some did. I almost did.
Drew offered to pick me up when he heard the frustration in my voice during our calls.
But I held on. I hoped the vertigo would pass.
And I’m so glad I didn’t quit.
Drew hugged me and said, “I’m so proud of you. You inspire me.”
And just like that, my brain went from “never again” to “maybe just one more.…”
Days of swearing I was done—gone. All the bad moments? Erased in an instant.
It was incredible.
Maybe success really is sweeter when it follows struggle.
Do I have plans to sign up again?
No.
Because doing this kind of thing? This thing that breaks young men? This thing that tests every part of you?
It’s absolutely nuts.
And absolutely worth it.
xx